Now... bring me that horizon.

Drink up me 'earties. Yo ho.

So I found this from the end of 2009, so I'll include both answers to see how things have changed

1) Was 2009/11 a good year for you?
Best year so far. / started out shit, but ended strong

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Busche Gardens. / Being told I was perfect.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Coming Home. / Peak Season

4) Where were you when 2009/11 began?
Somewhere being a jerk? / At work

5) Who were you with?
dont remember / Right next to Heather

6) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2009/11?
I always do/n't. / yes and no cause I didnt make them

7) Do you have a new years resolution for 2010/12?
Rresolutions should be made upon realizations, not a timeframe. / <--- same

8) Did you make any new friends in 2009?
To many. WAY to many. / <----- same again

9) Who are your favorite “new” friends?
None of them. I have to many friends / Chris O'Leary. That's my boo

10) What was your favorite month of 2010?
July/august / November!

11) How many different provinces and/or states did you travel to in 2009/11?
2,3, 4, 5? / ummmm 7?

12) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009?
Nobodys close to me. / <--- good call 3 year ago me

13) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Well kinda / <--- once again same

14) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2009/11?
Zombieland, I think. Still yet to see Where The Wild Things Are / Horrible Bosses was hilarious

15) Did you do anything out of character in 2009?
Um, Not really, i'm pretty random and spontanious / <---- still me

16) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Nope, 2009 was a good year. / <---- Same again

17) What was the worst lie you told someone in 2009?
I have no clue. / beats me

18) Did you treat somebody badly in 2009?
Yeah probably, I can be pretty heartless. / <--- apparently I dont change much

19) Did somebody treat you badly in 2009?
Probably, but it never bothers me. / <----- not much at all

20) What was your proudest moment of 2009?
Oh man, first thing that came to mind was guitaring. / Heather

21) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
I dont get embarassed easy, but I'm sure theres one somewhere. / None!

22) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something, what would it be?
Wouldnt change a thing at all. / <--- hell yeah me

23) What are your plans for 2010/12?
Working to save up for the roadtrip Laura and I are gonna take :D/ Car, apartment, online college courses

24)What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Oh my god, loads of stuff, but I'm to tired to list them. / <----- ^5 lazy me

25)What would you like to have in 2009/12 that you lacked in 2010/11?
Dont you mean that in reverse? / fixed the reverse, and more memories

26)What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 29th. Laura. <3 / November 11th. 11/11/11 Heather and I started dating

27)Did you suffer illness or injury?
Naw, I very rarely get sick or hurt. / HELLS NO

28) What was the best thing you bought?
My Guitar :'] / Ipod, this things saved my life

29) Whose behavior merited celebration?
Noclue / Me

30) Whose behavior made you appalled and disappointed?
None, I dont expect much from people / <-- Ditto

31) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Robots dont get excited! / Actually alot of things, movies, dates, hanging out, just random things

32) What do you wish you’d done more of?
Drugz / Been fourthcoming

33) What do you wish you’d done less of?
Procrastinating / Spending money

34) What was your favorite tv program?
Alice, cause its the only one I remember being excited to watch. / Doctor Who

35) Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
There was someone I didnt hate?! / <---- Agreed!

36) What was the best book you read?
Um, Honestly I think it was a book on paintings. / probably Icy Sparks

37) What was your greatest musical discovery?
Oh snap, dont you ask me about music, it WILL take awhile / DUBSTEP

38) What did you want and get?
Everything. I always get what I want if i want it bad enough. / My Lady

39) What did you want and not get?
Wellll I could still use a laptop... / <-- ho shit me too, past me!

40) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
OH MAN, I went to the liquor store at midnight, had a hotel party, woke up at 3 and went to the bars. / Walked to china buffet ate alone, then went to sleep. 23

41) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Winning the lottery / <--- word

42) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
I do what I want. / BadASS or ClASSy

43) What kept you sane?
Music / Hells to the yeah

44) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
If I want to achieve my goals in life, I cant be a person. The emotional risk is to high, but in the end It's worth it. / <-- that I was dumb

Life is like a hurricane.
So this is basically my general outline of life that I might flesh out into a book one day called "How to soar, by not giving a flying fuck." Alot of it probably wont make sense, and might even be a little contradictory, but that's kind of a point into itself.

1: Balance. Everything's got a balance to be kept. Be serious, and smart, but dont forget to be goofy and stupid. Be good AND bad. You can acheive good by doing bad. Bad, but never malicious. It's how I can remain sort of myserious and unpredictable, because my palet is various.

2: Be well rounded, and keep an open mind. You dont have to try and know everything about everything, but a little bit can go a long way. Read whatever you can, and keep an open mind, but stay skeptical. Don't be afraid to question anything, and always remember The String Theory is exactly that, a theory. It doesnt matter how "widely accepted" it is, if you think diffrent, question it, they probably wont be able to prove in the favor of either side.

3: Stand your ground. If you believe in something, you stand your god damned ground. Dont back down ever. Nobody has anymore right to an opinion. Everythings open to interpritation. Time's not the only thing that's relitive, perception itself is. Check out Goodmans Paradox.

4: Self Control. Do what you want, but remember self control. If you wanna drink, go for it as long as you're in control, concious of your actions, and concious

5: Understand Yourself. Look inside yourself, get to know yourself, love yourself. It's the only place youre going to find the answers that really matter. Clear the bullshit, the things that dont matter like how others think of you, or what you own, and get to know the you that thinks, the you that loves music, or dancing, or seweing.

6: Be in the now. The past was better and worse than you remember, the future wont ever be what you expect, so focus on now. How do you feel today, what can you do for someone today. When you're in the now, you're focused, undistraced, and are better because of it.

7: Trust yourself. You can do anything if you want it bad enough. You can make yourself into an unstopable machine by pure determination. How many times do people pull though, and beat the odds? How many doctors have been proven wrong? Fuck what people say, odds might be stacked aginst you, but the smallest chance is a chance. Nothing is more than an armslength away.

8: The Little things. A small flower on the way to work, a good cup of tea, a nice rain, finding a quarter in the couch. The small things are the most important, and paying attention to them will make such a differance to your everyday life. Even if youre locked in a cage, at least you can see the sky through the bars.

9: Perfection. Everything is perfect because of its imperfections. They make variety, which makes infinate possibility. I love imperfections, and I love your imperfections. If you think you've got some extra weight, I love it about you. Lazy eye? I love it about you. Rough times, and feeling vulnerable? I love it about you. Be vulnerable, put yourself out there, let them know you're not afraid of them trying to hurt you, because they can't.

10: Everything is choice/Help People. You are what you think you are, and you arent what you think you arent. You're no less than yourself, which isnt less or more than anybody else. If you dont like a situation, change it. I hope if you dont like yourself or your life, you have the courage to change it, because till people learn the meaning of being selfless, nobody's going to help you. Take the initive be the first to compliment a stranger. Give them a slower, hell just a smile could be all someone needs to make it through the day.

To Be Continued...

My Planet!
Ah to have my own planet, an entire world of my own creation. A place not of perfection, but of enough. No people are on my planet. Its untouched by the blighted touch of man. There are animals, and magical creatures everywhere. Real, and unreal anything that could be thought up is there someplace. Giant turtles with trees growing from their backs, Pheonix's that fly down from floating islands, Caves with bats thatre made of pure electricity that illuminate the darkness. Trees that twist and reach to the sky, with fruits so delicious and filling you only need one. Trees that bear fruit that can transform you into animals, or a spirit, even into a plant yourself for as long as you please. Plants that bloom in beautiful colors, and they strand togeather to make clothes that feel as soft and comfortable as rose petals, so instead of changing clothes, you can just pick new ones, and let your old ones wilt into the soil and birth new ones. Forests seemingly endless with birds that sing beautifully, and trees with folding bark, with stories written in them. Everything communicates with each other on a almost spiritual level, and works in complete Harmony. The weather changes, instead of berametric pressure, on emotional pressure in certain places. Still being random most everywhere, but some places will be special Havens, where you dont even have to think or wish for a warm rain, it just happens when it should. A world without wants. Gravity changes from place to place. some you can walk as normal, some you can hover and fly, and since everything is connected you can desolve into the air, and appear anywhere you desire. There will be happy places, and even dark places of lava, and fire, and dragons, where the sky's always clouded by smoke, and its dangerous to traverse. Bands of mischevious imps, Just where nearly anything can happen anywhere at anytime. Almost nothing is completely certain, constantly changing, never getting to repetitious. Even some landscapes change daily, and time is just an idea. Some islands might cycle through a year in the course of an hour on another. you could go from one island to another, then back and it be completely diffrent, with new species of animals never seen before. Groves and gardens. Trees with leaves giant, and thick and fluffy, perfect for naps and rest. Rivers of tea, and the freashest water with jewelry for riverstones. Anything you could ever want to do can be done. Adventures to be had, dangers, beauty. A huge underground system of caves, where each cavern echos out diffrent musics, to get lost in a soundscape. Deserts formed by sand made from the dreams of everything. Where the desert rocks are screens that dreams had can be watched on and revisited with a prick from a catus that grows there. Clouds of hope, where you could walk on them, breath them in and know peace. Nights so clear you can see the multiple moons glowing politely. You can whim fireflies to light a path for you, and wonder to pumpkin patches, where the vines grow into a gazebo, or a path that can lead to a snow covered hill, with sledrocks, or to a mysterious stump with a root ladder going into a hole to a land of ghouls, and hidden beauties that can only be forged in such a dark place. You can still get hurt, there's still fear, its not perfect, but perfects boring. Everyday is fresh and new, and full of infinate possiablilites.

1. What time did you get up this morning?
Ummmmmmmm 7, then noonish
2. How do you like your steak?
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Oh man, I think it might of been Shrek 3D lol
4. What is your favorite TV show?
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Ooh man, I dont even know. I just need to see EVERYWHERE to decide.
6. What did you have for breakfast?
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
8. What foods do you dislike?
SEAFOOD. Its disfuckingusting
9. Favorite Place to Eat?
at a floating picnic table
10. Favorite dressing?
Dressing Comfortably
11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
12. What are your favorite clothes?
The kind that make me feel comfortable
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
Well if youre drinking it, its halfway empty, if youre pouring it, its halfway full
15. Where would you want to retire?
The Fields of Ganymede
16. Favorite time of day?
The time when its not day, and the stars are out to play
17. Where were you born?
IN a hospital in louisville
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Dewds hitting on girls.
19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
what responses, this is a Quiz not a test.
22. Bird watcher?
I like watching all nature =D
23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
NIGHT. OH GOD NIGHT. IF I get up at 5 am, or 11, I dont wanna do shit till noon.
24. Pets?
Shadow, and Princes
25. Any new and exciting news that you'd like to share?
This just in: I am cold, and need a blanket.
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
a vet, a pirate, a con artist, a pokemon MASTER
27. What is your best childhood memory?
Don't remember.
28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Cats. Dogs bark and eat to much.
29. Are you married?
To an ideology I suppose.
30. Always wear your seat belt?
not always. Im a rebel.
31. Been in a car accident?
I dont recall? Maybe?
32. Any pet peeves?
33. What is your favorite pizza topping?
moar pizza!
34. Favorite Flower?
This one that blooms once in its lifetime at night.
35. Favorite ice cream?
hoomygod, right now I"ve been wanting mint chocolate chip. like alot.
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Wendys, though I havent ate there in god knows how long
37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
None, lolz
38. From whom did you get your last email?
probably fucking facebook. shit spams my inbox.
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Dont have one, but if I did, an airplane store.
40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
Ummm, I never really plan anything, so everything I do you could call spontaneous
41. Like your job?
42. Broccoli?
actually doesnt sound bad right now
43. What was your favorite vacation?
Um, my dad and I went to Gattlinburg, just the two of us once. It wasnt exactly the MOST fun vacation, but its my favorite one now.
44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Umm, I think it was Sabra? I dunno, not 100% sure
45. What are you listening to right now?
the wind, as I totally need to get my mp3 player
46. What is your favorite color?
Today I feel Aqua
47. How many tattoos do you have?
2 for the time being
48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
what?! none
49. What time did you finish this quiz?
50. Coffee Drinker?
actually sometimes I do like mocha thingys that are apparently coffee, but not on a regular basis.

When we sleep, the devil's arms are tired.
We were young, our words were innocent; whiter than snow, awkward and slow; Now when we speak, we risk an avalanche; but that's not enough now, to reroute our plans.

A long rough night, fades into a lost morning. Oversleeping and missing, and reoccuring thoughts of the doom. I'm not giving up, and not giving in, my grip just laxed. I want to hold onto the dreams. Fight for it, quit feeling like an afterthought. I need to quit worrying, and stop being so stressed out about every little thing I do. I feel like Im trying so hard. Doing things I hate, things that make me feel sick just to keep a promise that's so easily overridden by someones insecurities. The same ones I feared from the very start would stop plans years in the making, now seemingly lost in the echos of a fingersnap. When the right thing to do is to just be quiet, and nod. Take all the awfulness and just swallow it in its bitterness, and force a cracked smile for cracked jokes. I hate watching everything youre scared of slowly advance towards you, and you can't do anything but watch the pendulum's blade infront of your face. I hate being so brokenhearted everday, and stuck between wanting so hard to be left alone, and someone to give me a hug and simply say it's going to all be ok. Just some sign that its not all for nothing. That all the work and little bits of myself I exert, well, I know wont be forgotten, but Im afraid will be a memory. I dont want to be scared anymore.

(no subject)
Working security is aweful. I got cussed out more yesterday than ever, and oh my god, do I just wanna blow their cars up. It's hot, I didnt have time to eat, and just a mountain of things getting on my nerves. But Im taking it as a test of humility. It's just another one of those things that reminds me why I'm so hopeless, cause if I hadnt said I'd use the money to go see them, theres no way in hell I'd keep doing it. But, its just one of those things I guess. Sleep would also be awesome.

The rainy winds will wash away
I feel stretched pretty thin with my positivity right know. Everyones been such a downer, and I've been trying to send out so much good energy, and healing energy, I just feel drained. I want to sleep for a very long time, have some solitude, and maybe not feel so bad. I just need the fields of Ganymede.

Havent updated with one of these
in like 3 years. so zombie update!

Your full name:: Allejandro Don Rapheal Diego Montero De La Vega
Age:: 21 (22 soon =[)
Height:: 6'2"
Natural hair color:: Dark Brown
Eye color::. Changes, and is currently blue/green
Number of siblings:: Heather & Donna
Glasses/contacts?:: Sunglasses 8) <-- lol still have those aviators
Piercing:: Ears, cause they're awesome


Color:: The blueish pink the sky gets at sunset.
Band:: I refuse to pick one!
Song:: Even more I refuse to pick one
Stuffed animal:: I dont have any =[
Video game:: Devil May Cry 3 /innernerd
TV show:: I dont watch tv
Movie:: Big Fish. =']
Book:: I have to give it to Faust on princible
Food:: Ribs. For the love of god, Ribs. <--- right on me
Flower:: Night Blooming Cereus
Scent:: Mango
Animal:: Princess
Comic book:: I am not Jam. and do not read comics.
Cereal:: OMG, Cinnamon toast crunch is awesome good
Website:: anyone that lets me steals music


Play an instrument?:: I'm musically inclined to every instrument on earth. Weather I'm good or not is another story.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: I DONT WATCH TV
Like to sing?:: I'm a superstar.
Have a job?:: Yeah, I'm my homes security guard.
Like to play sports?:: sometimes, actually.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: eww
Have a crush on someone?:: EWW
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: there are 2, and I dont watch either. wtf is it with you and tv.
Have any special talents/skills?:: So many, instead of having me on every page of the guinness world record book, they just dedicate it to me.
Exercise daily?:: to a certain degree
Like school?:: Only half as much as I like flesh eating bugs to lay eggs in my stomach! <--lol ^5 me


Sing the alphabet backwards?:: If I really tried, I bet I could
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: i'm not a ballet girl, ok? Stop throwing my failed dreams in my face! :'[
Speak any other languages?:: A little of this unt dat.
Go a day without food?: I can, and do.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: I do that way more than I should.
Roll your tongue?:: Yeah, especially on ice cream.
Eat a whole pizza?:: Not anymore =[


Cried to get out of trouble?:: I NEVER get in trouble. Im a good kid.
Seen a shooting star?:: YES!OMGOMGOMG
Been to any other countries?:: You just wait!
Solved a rubiks cube?:: yeah, when I peel the squares off and put them back.
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: I dont have pajamas
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: No, it happened with water, and it was more choking than laughing.
Been in love?:: Yah
Been close to love?:: Yah
Been to a casino?:: Yes! and next time I go, Im gonna be rich.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: Actually in 7th grade, the coach said he'd pay anyone who could drink a whole gallon of milk in an hour without vomiting, 100 dollars. But it was only for the highschoolers part of the skool. so no.
Made homemade muffins?:: Yes, and pudding. Guess which one failed


Brushed your teeth:: This morning.
Saw a movie in theaters:: Made Billy pay for me to watch The Last Airbender with him.
Read a book:: To referance a book, yesterday. I like intently read, I think it's been a couple weeks.
Had a snow day:: Last winter! I MADE A THROWN!
Had a party:: Friday before last.
Had a slumber party:: OMGOMG foreversago
Tripped in front of someone:: lol salvia
Went to the grocery store: FOREVER ago. STARVING


Fruit/vegetables:: Fruit
Black/white:: Offcenter
Lights on/lights off:: Dimmed
TV/movie:: Movie
Car/truck:: Car
Body spray/lotion:: soap
Cash/check:: Cash money
Pillows/blankets:: blanket cause it can double as a pillow.
Paint/charcoal:: Pencil
Chinese food/Mexican food:: Itallian
Summer/winter:: Spring
Snow/rain:: Rain!
Fog/misty:: Roll in the fog blanket pls.
Rock/rap:: Rock n Roll, bless my soul.
Meat/vegetarian:: Carniverous tyvm.
Chocolate/vanilla:: marble
Sprinkles/icing:: fgts makin me hungry.
Cake/pie:: stop mkaing me hungry >=|
French toast/French fries:: French toast with all the fixins.
Strawberries/blueberries:: Mix them both into a smoothie for me, k?
Ocean/swimming pool:: Ocean diving
Cookies/muffins:: I said stop making me hungry >=|!
Wallet/pocket:: Pocket rocket lalals <-- still lolololz
Window/door:: The Doors. Lizard King.
Pink/purple:: Pink, its my new obsession.
Cat/dog:: I love dogs, but they've been pissing me off lately. so catz.
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: Tattoo Sleeve
Pants/shorts:: Kilts pls
Spring/autumn:: omgomg. flowers vs halloween... daw halloween wins
Clouds/clear sky:: Clouds to varing degrees
Moon/mars:: Moon. Hallo I'm a cancer. The moon would come closer and make a tidal wave kill me if I turned my back on it.


am:: A coin operated boi <-- still
want:: a teleporter
need:: you so much closer
crave:: something for my empty tummy tum
hate:: This survey cause I'm hungry.
did:: a baaad baaad thing.
feel:: I'm like a biiird, I wanna fly awaaay.
miss:: The renassiance
am tired of:: people


What is your favorite genre of music?:: DONT HAVE ME PICK MUSIC!
What time is it now?:: 3:49 PM
What day is it?:: TOday
When's the last time you called someone?:: In a bit ;]
Are you hungry?:: STFU! GTFO! DAMN YOU! >:|
Whatcha doin?:: Filling out a survey, estupido
Do you like parades?:: Gay pride worldwide
Do you like the moon?:: Tidal waves. Of course I do.
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: Stuff, you nosey bastard!
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: Time travel, teleporting, and a lightning shooting guitar.
Have you ever had a picnic?:: I want to go on a picnic now.
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: nope, gotta feel the grass.


funny?:: More than other think I am.
pretty?:: I'm a beautiful princess.
sarcastic:: Of course not.
hyper?:: Super mellow
friendly:: umm, cordial is more like it.
smart?:: E=MC2, right Prof. Hootington?
strong?:: Like HE-MAN!
talented?:: In many many useless ways.
dorky?:: weeeelllllllll maybe a little.


Sky dive?:: Hell yeah! Sign me up!
Run away?:: Done it.
Not take a shower for a week?:: Yeah, cause I always smell like peaches and rose pedals.
Ask someone out?:: Done it.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: This is a when instead of a would.
Go scuba diving?:: Gotta find treasure, atlantis, and reefs.
Write a Books:: In the works of it!
Become a Rockstar?:: Its unfortunately probably a certainty.

Someday my pain
Its bright out, and the house is so cold. I needed to warm myself in the sunlight, lay in the grass and listen to music. Darkness descends quickly and my complete emersion into the grass is abruptly stopped as a single page from a newpaper lands on me. As I pick it up Ellie Gouldings amazing cover of The Wolves starts to play, and the picture of an old lady in a garden catches my gaze on the paper thats tarnished yellow. I start reading about this ladys thats retired, but turning a small part of her block into a beautiful garden. The oneness she feels when planting small seeds and bulbs, then watch them grow and bloom. Start deep in the dirt and claw their way to the sky and transform into new beautiful shapes. The quickly growing darkness gives way to a sudden shower. The raindrops wetting my lips as I mouth the words Im reading. As the article, storm, and song all decided to collectivally end, the slow heartfelt, and harmonized repetition of the words "someday my pain" play, and envelope me, and give me the reassurance I needed to keep doing exactly what I've been doing. A dream doesnt have to be big, but having one, holding it closer than a lovers embrace, is all thats truely important to me. I sleep on maybe a matress on the floor, a couch, a futon, a small patch of grass, no bed. I eat ramen, and crackers while everyone goes out for steak, I have really nothing thats my own, and at times I'm sure I live in the 7th circle of hell. But I've got more than most people will ever understand, and nobody can ever change it.

So I decided to go walk in the woods and get my notebook from my winter thrown. It was taken over by the nature. Got bit by: a spider, FIVE ticks, and a snake, that I thought was a rattler at first, but it wasnt, it was some other (didnt even penetrate my boot), so I was ognna be like "BRING IT ON DAY!" But there were really pretty butterflies, and neat looking spiders, and a duckie was just in my yard, and russel caught 2 baby raccoons! They're now mine.


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